The Road to Race Track Producer: Lee Tae-won Writer: Ha Il-ji Kang Su-yeon Moon Seong-keun Kim Bo-yeon DP: Yoon Yeong-gil Editor: Kim Hyun Music: Kim Su-cheol Director: Jang Seon-woo British Airlines 027 from London
has just arrived from Hong Kong. R returned on June 16th. Actually it’s not clear
if it was the 15th or the 16th. Because he traveled
across half the world he was unable to keep track of time. But that’s not important because he was given time
in one way or another. Wow. My goodness.
What is making this so heavy? There’s nothing more than a computer, printer and a few books. You’re going to sleep over. Right? Yes, I should right? Are you tired? Yes. I’m so very tired. I wasn’t able to sleep at all
during the 22 hour flight. Oddly enough, I have a headache. Get some proper rest. You should be fine after a few days I’ll have to leave in a bit. What? Why? Do you know how much I’ve missed you? No, please don’t. We can’t do that here. I should go. Have you thought of
what you’re going to do from now on? Yes. If you’re going to leave,
leave before it gets late. It’s only 9. It’s still early. I’m okay. Aren’t you tired? I’m tired. I’m just going to rest.
Hurry up and leave before it gets late. Ok then I’m going to leave. No need to walk me out. Come here you skank! – I said I’m not.
– Come here! You want to die today. I should kill you! Come here! Now! Idiot! You pathetic human being.
You think you can beat me? Huh? Shut up! Uh… You’re such a whore. You’re going to kill me?
Sure. Why don’t you try, moron. What a dirty slut!
Come here! Slut! Where are you going? Come back! Come back! Stop there!
Where are you going? Where the hell are you going? This is such an odd motel.
People fight and yell all night long. Where do you want to be dropped off? Not sure Shall we tour downtown Seoul? No. Do you know what traffic
is like at this time? The roads are too congested. When are you going to Daegu?
You’re leaving today right? I guess I should. Let’s head to The Express Bus Terminal. Yeah? The noise of the phone ringing
woke me up at 2 a.m. I wasn’t able to sleep after that. Also I was hoping you would at least call once. Hey! I got cut off again! Where is there room for you to come in? Uh! You won’t believe how many more
cars are on the road now. Don’t you think there are more cars now
than before you left? You know, they say by 1999 the average
driving speed in Seoul will be 7km/hr. How about we just drive to Daejeon? To Daejeon? Sure. Gyeongbu Expressway will be packed.
Let’s take The Jungbu Expressway. There’s a Jungbu Expressway? Yes, it’s a new highway. They say it’s less congested. Uh… If I had known than I would have gotten on the Olympic Expressway. Is it that hard to find the on ramp? Uh! Yes. It’s just over there.
You can see the expressway. I can’t find a ramp. Isn’t your father’s factory
engulfed in labor disputes? No. No such problems. My dad always treats them so well. Also, those problems only happen in
the large companies, not the smaller ones. Ok. Now where shall we go? Shall we go to Yuseong? Why Yuseong? They have hot springs. They do, but what will we do there? First, we will bathe in the hot springs and then… How can we? Let’s go. What will we do there? What else will we do? First, we will take a bath in the springs and then I’ll rub my face against your bosom, and then I’ll fondle your nipples. After that I’ll push my groin against yours. As always, our bodies will melt into each other and your hair down there… Do you know how much I missed
your body after you left? Of course I was busy with work and
did forget about it to a certain degree. But, I don’t want to do it in a motel. I know we had our own apartment in France but what can we do about
not having a place here yet? And if I don’t have sex right now . I’m going to go crazy Yes, but Korea is different. Do we have to go? It’s better to go than not. But… Hurry up. Let’s go Stop it Move your hands. Stop. Don’t. That hurts.
That hurts. Stop. Stop Why are you doing this? You want to drive me crazy? Why are you torturing me? Why are you torturing me? You… Sleep here and go down tomorrow.
I’m going to leave. Did I come here to sleep alone in this strange room? Do you think I have nowhere to go? What do you want me to do? Are you saying you don’t need me anymore? The cheapest kind of whore. I feel dirty and embarrassed, meeting you as soon as I got back. Let me just ask you one thing. Did you meet someone else? Then why are you acting like this? What is causing you to act like this? You can have all of this
since it was bought with your money. I just need this. Is this not Ga-ya’s home? It is. Then who is this I’m talking to? I’m Ga-ya’s older sister So you are Yeong-nam’s mother? Yes. It’s me R. He just arrived. It’s been five years. He just showed up without telling us. No, he doesn’t look thinner or older. He looks just the same. Yes. Yes. yes. yes Oh come on, stop it. Did you set a wedding date, Myeong-ja? Yes. She was waiting till you came back to get married. You must be happy Myeong-ja. You were at the factory
since elementary school. I bet it makes you shudder to think of it. And Soon-ja,
you work at an electronics store? Isn’t it difficult? Bookkeeping isn’t too hard. Yeong-a’s mother does a flower shop? Yeong-a’s mother is good to us now. Since last April, right? Why did you send such a cruel letter? She cried and threw a fit because of it. She couldn’t be better
to us these days. Move these. Mother, I’m back. Yeong-a, your father is here. Come. Hurry. – Why?
– Honey. Hi, it’s been a long time. How have you been? What kind of greeting is that
for a married couple that hasn’t seen each other in ages? It’s your father. Say hi. Hello. Father
Hello dad. That’s it? Shouldn’t you bow? Come on! You’re not going to join Yeong-a? You take a bow, too. How is it seeing the kids again? I don’t know. Yong-taek, that is your father. Yong-taek looks just like you. No? I can’t really tell. Yeong-a. Do you remember your dad? She doesn’t. Yong-taek. How is it seeing your father? He looks dull. Hello brother-in-law. Hello. Welcome. I thought you were dead man. Let’s see you how you are. Are the buses still running? I took a cab here. There is no where to sit. Bring that over.
You need more food on the table. Mother. Don’t get up May I shake the hand of
the doctorate holder? Tough to get? I did what I gotta do. You look good. Please sit. This here is a doctorate dissertation. Look! I wouldn’t know it whatever. This has “dedicated to my father” written on it, right? Yes, that is correct. Do you want me to get the lights? Sure. Do you know where she’s going? Oh! Here she comes. Goodbye. How’s your parents? They’ve gotten so old. Mother almost passed away
last new year’s day. They’ll serve it if you ask them. Miss! Water please. Did Yeong-a remember you? Wow, It seems overstaffed here in Korea. Are they attended even
just filling glass of water? people would pour it themselves, no? What did Yong-taek say? Does he look just like you? Well I don’t know. He said I look dull. That’s what he said. What? Dull? To a doctorate holder? Uh, why don’t they bring water. Drink this, I didn’t take a sip. When I meet you,
it’s always endless walking. This is a stroll. Do you remember what you said to me
when you visited France last summer? You said you desperately wanted to
take a walk in Seoul, didn’t you? How is this a stroll?
This is slave labor. Your bus leaves at 6:50. J Do you know ? J. desperately desire you? Next time. Let’s do it next time. Seriously, why are you like this? What is your ground
of your code of conduct? We have to be careful in Korea. Do you know what kind of place Korea is? Shall I get the lights? Sure. Now that you have
your doctorate degree, you must buy a bigger house. They can’t kick you out every time
they have a party now, can they? I’m okay with it, but
It’s a little embarrassing, I guess. It’s okay. What the heck. Why does he hate you so much? The biggest reason is
because I had atteded that school. On top of that… I have a doctorate
he doesn’t have yet. Something like that. Last time he got drunk at a party.
He said… I know you’re smart. But you are so conceited and arrogant. He yelled that out. What? How did you end up
hearing such a thing? He has too many personal issues. What kind of “smart”
does he see in you? Exactly. I don’t even have
an ounce of intelligence. You always give me hard time
for not being smart. This is true. Anyway… Have you looked into other places? There was a job opening
for professor last summer, I pitched my application there. Then… Of course I didn’t get it. I found out later the board of school
appointed the assumed already. Job postiong in newspaper was
just pretending “fair procedure” in public. Wow! But even so, the dean of
the department really liked me Though they couldn’t hire me
at the time, he said he would scout me next time. Then I presented him with
the published book carried my article. So… They think very highly of me. That sounds very encouraging. What kind of article the book carried? Oh..um… It doesn’t matter really. I’ll tell you about it later. Well… You’re always like this. It’s not even a big deal
so what matters? Where are you going to stay tonight? What the hell… Geez… all we ever do is eat together. What do you want me to do? It’s driving me crazy, too. Seriously! Have you guys ever come to see? Welcome. Does she even know where I live? Say I got sick and died. Would you two even come? Wake up stupid!
I didn’t raise you to be like this! Please keep it down. I never met you halfway. I will live my life and you yours.
That’s that. Let’s go. Welcome. Ah, sorry for being late. Why am I wasting time on worthless things
after returning to Korea? If I can’t hold your naked body
through the night and slip away. mine feels like it’s going to rot.
I’m that tired. I don’t want to go down
to Daegu home tonight. So what if you don’t go back? Fine! Fine! So what is it
that you want from me? What do I want?. Like I clearly and bluntly
stated in my letter, I want a divorce I’m sorry. What do you sorry for? I had a deep relationship before I married you. Ah! Do you think that’s
what I’m talking about right now? Yes? It is not a reasont
that I should divorce you. So what is it then? Of course finding out that
you had a previously relationship and weren’t pure in body
was offensive to me. However, that’s in the past
and what can I do about it? That is not the reason
I decided to get a divorce. Then what is it? Since we are talking about this. You are not someone that
can support my rise. You may be able to throw away
my old books, but you will never be able to
throw away your vanity. Isn’t that true? Anyway… Do you know
what happened to your sister? What happened? She is… so worried you get to know it. Really? Then don’t tell me. Oh man…
she made me promise not to tell you. She had a relationship with another man. So? One day she came to me crying,
asking me what she should do. The guy she was dating
left her and got on a ship. I think she was pregnant.
Father knows all about it as well. So? Why’re you yelling at me? So? So what! Why are you telling me this? You made me realize once again
why I can’t live with you. Is father very unwell? Uh… He can’t even manage farming. He’s getting weaker noticeably
since a couple of years ago. Why don’t you quit farming? Farming gives you nothing
but tough work. The land owner gets rich
from rising land prices. I heard they get millions. Lets go now. And where are we going to go? If there is really nowhere
to go lets go back in. We just came out.
Why go again? You’re going to want to
come back out as soon as we get in. It’s a waste of money. You want another ice cream? Again? Uh… Tonight I must touch your nipples and fall asleep with our pubis stuck. Only then able to get
my dulled instinct back to life. I’ll be able to keep myself
hanging tough in Korea. and survive in harsh Korea. No. You still haven’t solved
your divorce problems. Are you mad? Well… Now what shall we do?
Where should I drop you off? Anywhere. Do I really have
a specific place to go? Then I’ll drop you off
at the motel you stayed at last time. Is this really Korea? Is this the Seoul with the 600 year history? It’s peppered with crosses. It feels like I’ve entered
a huge European cemetery. Don’t view everything
so pessimistically. Am I pessimistic? I might be. If I could just paraphrase something I heard, it feels like Seoul becomes
a massive graveyard full of crosses at night. PJ Paradise Motel Yeong-a come inside.
I have something to say. What do you want to say?
I’m busy. I said come inside. I don’t want you to work in the kitchen. So, have you thought about it? About what? Do you really not know? Why do you want a divorce
all of a sudden? All of a sudden? It is not sudden at all. I’ve been asking for
a divorce for ages. You’ve just been denying it
like you are now. You said you would think about it. Did you think about it?
Shouldn’t you tell me your decision? No? I still need more time to think. How much time do you need? I’ve been asking for 8 years. So is it okay for some to
have a relationship before marriage and not okay for others? What are you talking about?+++ Isn’t it so? I mean… Is it okay for some women to
have premarital relationships? And it’s not okay for others? Mother, father, are you back? Yes. Where are the kids? They’re out playing. If it’s so hard for you to say do you want me to just ask you? What would you like? Coffee. You have a boyfriend? Yes. Really? Wow that’s great. Congratulations. So what you want to ask me, R, is now that you have a man
you want me to get out of your life! That’s what you want to say right? Isn’t it? Are you two going to get married? Yes. You found a good one. If I had known earlier, I shouldn’t
have got your support that much. Silly me kept asking for your help. That’s not it. It’s only recently that
I said I would marry him. But… but I knew after I got back
from France last summer. He kept asking me
to marry him for a long time. But you know I can’t get married. So I said no, I answer yes to him recently. Of course…
of course I said I can’t. But he kept asking why. He said he couldn’t turn away
without knowing. And… And I just gave in. And that’s why I recently said yes. Yeah good job. But why did yo decide recently? Why? It’s because of you. I can’t leave you and get married. But I can’t marry you neither. You know I sometimes… not always, but sometimes
I just want to get married. You understand how I feel, right? Yes, I should understand. It’s not important when you told him
you would marry him. This is a problem caused by your emotions. He loves me. Of course. So did you tell him that you and I lived together
for three and a half years in France? How can I tell someone about that? I much rather just not get married. You did a right thing. It’s better not to mention such things. You’ll just damage this man who loves you so much as you desribed, and because of that he might
pay you back by cheating you. It might be best
to keep quiet about this and prevent hurting him. Do you understand? Yes. Of course… of course I know
I can’t get married because of you. However…
I get it. I get it. But occasionally.. it’s not all the time. I said I get it. It worked out. In France, you often told me that in Korea men chase the girls. I get it. It seems Korean women are really
into having many men chase them, it tends to be taken as a sign of
their influence or attration. I guess
I’ve been chasing you as well. Come to think of it,
I’m slightly embarrassed. I’m sorry. No need to be sorry. It’s all in the past. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Let’s take a walk. Lets. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. What is there to be sorry about?
Quit saying that. But you aren’t divorced yet? That is exactly it. That has always been my biggest fault. However, after returning to Korea I have been trying very hard
to get a divorce. But even if you got a divorce
you’re not going to marry me. And Doctor… you don’t even love me. This is true. I never thought I had to marry you once I got a divorce. I know. I think you have been a routine to me. Your my habitual sex partner. Do I love you? I’m not sure about that. But one thing that I am certain of is I enjoy having sex with you
on a regular basis. I like fondling your breasts, and stroking your pubic hair. I also like to cum inside you. I know , all women have the same physical traits but as you know I haven’t slept with a lot of women. So, I don’t know them and don’t feel a sexual desire for them. That’s why I’ve become so fond of ejaculating into that womb of yours. I know. Do you? You say you know, but you have misunderstood me all along. No! I know what you are saying. You are…I know that you see things
objectively than others do. Is that why I deserve to be betrayed like this? I’m sorry. Where are you going? Where did you park? I parked over there. Go. I will walk you to your car. Goodbye. Okay. Goodbye. J! I have something to say. What is it? I can accept everything, but one thing really bothers me. And what that is… I’m wondering if your decision
to leave me and get married stems from a misunderstanding. Some misunderstandings… If a misunderstanding completely destroys what we built together that is a sad thing, as well as regrettable and it could be considered a crime. This is true. And you made it sound as if I am never going to get a divorce. Like I’m not really trying to get a divorce. That’s the general feeling I got. If you feel that way,
it’s all a misunderstanding. You can’t even get a divorce. Are you secretly wishing I don’t get a one? No! Are you crazy?
You don’t’ need to get a divorce for me, but you must get it for your own good. Exactly. That’s exactly right. That is why I am doing
my best to get a divorce. I will get a divorce. Also, you said that , even if I did get one I wouldn’t marry you. That also is a misunderstanding. It’s not like I never thought about it. I thought a contract marriage or
just living together was more appropriate. However, if that’s not how it’s done
in Korea, I can get married. No need to do that. And… You also said that I don’t love you. That can also be a point of
misunderstanding. I thought the commonly used
word “love” was too dull. That’s the only reason I said that. I love you. But did you ever tell me while we were together in France that you wanted to marry me or that you loved me? Exactly I’m saying that is
a misunderstanding. It is true that I didn’t promise you anything while we were in France, but did I have to make
specific promises to you? Wasn’t our life in France
a promise in itself? Yes, yes, yes. But… I also want to get married. Sometimes.
Not always. Well… When I’m with you, I feel like I’m bothering you . and that tortures me That is one of the big reasons I told you I’m leaving you to get married! You are going to be better off without me. That also is a misunderstanding. That is your biggest misunderstanding. You always thought you were bad for me. Of course, I was distressed to a certain degree because of you. There’s an incident that comes to mind. I was working on the computer
and you were annoying me and out of desperation you said, I’ll give you money, please be upset! It breaks my heart
to remember that. How desperate you must
have been to say such a thing… It was hard to stay mad at you
when you said things like that. However, things are different now. I won’t let your stuff
interfere with my business. I’m not that dumb. I won’t let your issues effect
my work negatively. So there is no need for you to think that way. Honestly, there’s nobody in Seoul
I mean, in the world that knows what I need and want
better than you. I don’t think there is anyone else
that could help me. In other words,
you know me inside out. Once, I was overcome
with uncontrollable lust. However, we were unable to
have sex at that time. You looked at me for an eternity and eventually
let me cum in your mouth. I said “thank you” because you knew
how much I needed that. You always try to fulfill my needs,
whatever it may be. Even when you didn’t have any money, you knew I wanted a Montblanc pen and You bought it for me. But despite all of this,
you still think to yourself that you’re no good for me. That is your own delusion
and a misunderstanding. However, I’ve made the biggest mistake. I should have promised you things
when we were in France. But I guess I thought
you just knew me and how I felt. Yes, it was good to have this kind of talk instead of leaving things
hanging like last time. I agree. How about we do this… Do what? We shouldn’t let our pride allow us
to make a rash decision. We need to think about this more carefully. So… go home tonight and concern about it.
We talk more tomorrow. Okay. Let’s do that. Okay. I’m leaving. Citizens. Wolves masked
as lamb are right behind us, manipulating us to
stand against the government. They praise Communism and
try to bring it to this country. But our government is against them. The authorities totally pulled back
from Communism. Of course, I know it’s not right for me
to leave you and marry someone. However I… But then I can never
get married to anyone. How can I get married? But, still sometimes… sometimes… I just want to get married. I know it’s a problem with my emotions, but we can’t even get married. You understand how I feel? Right?
You understand? Yeah… How can I ever leave you? He has continuously
asked me to marry him. How can I get married? So I said no. But then… But then… Wait. Hold on a second, please. Let me ask you one thing. What is it? The second day I was back in Korea.
We went to Yuseong, right? I asked you then
if you were seeing someone. You shook your head side to side? When I asked you the question, I asked in a negative statement, right? And because you are used to
the Western sentence structure, out of habit,
you answered “no” and you shook your head. Right? If not how could you have… Yes… Isn’t that how you asked it? That’s how I understood it. Yes. But despite that, I took your answer
as you NOT having a boyfriend because you shook your head side to side. Like you said yesterday, isn’t everything due to
my emotional problems? Right? Yes I know full well that I can’t leave you. When I think of you I get so sad. Really. However, once in a while I… not always just sometimes… Like you said, everything stems from
your emotional problems. That’s what you said
yesterday, right? Yes, I did say that. But… I would like to seriously warn you of one thing. What is it? You must tell that person
who loves you, that you lived with me for
three and a half years in France. Why should I tell him that? And also, last night you said I should never tell him. You have to tell him. I’d rather not get married. Why do I have to tell someone
else about that? As a friend and a lover you shared
three and a half years with, I want to advise you
to go tell him the truth now. But I think he has vaguely caught on that
I had a painful relationship in the past. Painful? It sounds like a movie title. You remember our three and a half years
together as pain? I’m sorry. When we first started dating you
often used the word pain. So I told you not to classify every emotion
you have as pain. You get off by clumping everything
you feel into the word, pain. Condensing complicated feelings
into such a mundane word is not becoming of someone who
studied literature in grad school. Hence, I told you not to use
such words from then on. – Do you remember?
– Yes. After that you
didn’t use that word. But I see that after returning to Korea
you have rediscovered that word. I’m sorry. So… what kind of pain was
our time together? I’m sorry. However, whenever I meet you… I can never say anything
in front of you. I’m not like that with other people. Everyone else finds
what I say so interesting. Of course, when I talk to these people I incorporate parts of
what I heard from you. Yes. I’ve learned so much from you. When I meet other people
they all listen courteously to me. Also, I can talk to them
without any hesitation. However, when I’m with you… I can’t say anything
in front of you. Why wouldn’t they listen to you? You are a Doctor of Literature
that studied in France. J Yes. I have a heavy heart telling you this. Yes. The moment you stop being with R, you step into a void. You’re right. I can’t leave you. How could I leave you? I can’t do that. Then you have to tell him that you lived with me
for three and half years. No. I don’t want to.
I’d rather not get married! Why should I tell him all of that? I don’t want to! So did you tell him? Yes. What did he say? He was taken aback. I’m sure he was. So does he still want to marry you? No. You see. I’m so angry. Why do I have to tell him all of that? I am so upset. Yes. I understand how you feel,
but what can you do. Now, forget
about the whole thing and wait for me patiently. Okay. When Hook saw that Peter Pan was asleep
he put poison in his medicine. Mom, is that poison? Yes. Do you think I’m going to
stop pursuing a divorce just because
you’re being stubborn? Ha! Is it okay for some women
to have premarital relationships, but not me? This is so unfair. You start again. During the past eight years I never told anyone about your premarital relationships.
That was to protect your reputation. However, you bring up Myeong-ja
every chance you can. Fine! Why should I cover up
your dirty past? Ha! Dirty my butt. Why is it okay for some?
Why are you so mean to me? Fine. Then I will tell my family about everything. Get up. I said get up. Come. Let’s go to other room. I heard from Yeong-a’s mother
that Myeong-ja had a premarital relationship. That woman mentions it
every chance she can. Is it true? Also, while we are on this topic I also have something to say. This woman slept with many men
before she married me. One of them is my friend
from high school. Just shut up,
stupid boy. Pick one, pick one, pick one. Last chance! It’s a big bargain.
Take it, take it! Last chance! Why are you so late? The traffic was crazy. Let’s rest somewhere.
I’m so tired. So what did he say? It’s all over. Tell me more in detail. He asked if we had any kids. So I told him the truth. Why do I have to tell other people
about what happened? Look at that smile. Are you happy now? When I think of how it felt
to tell him about everything… Do you regret telling him? No, but still… I know how you feel, but it was something
you had to do. Right? I don’t know. Now it’s over. Let’s forget about it and move on. I’ve already forgotten it. Yes, everything is over. Even with you. What does that mean? I mean it. The reason I came out today is
to tell you that everything is over. I will neve ever see you again. You’re not done with the guy? It’s over. It’s all over.
Even with you. Why are you being like this? Please stop pestering me. – I’m so tired.
– Anyways… just know that I’m never going to meet you again. But J, last time you mentioned
sending a Department Head a book with your paper
published in it. What paper was that? Oh… that? Buy one please. I didn’t tell you?
That was…uh…well… Remember that paper
you wrote for me, telling me to submit it
to a literary contest? So I took that…
and when was it? Last year after I finished my studies,
I brought it back with me. I gave that to you to keep. Yes! So after I brought it back,
I looked it over and decided it was too good
to throw away. So I modified most of it
and showed it to Professor Lee. And before I went to France
for the summer… Yes, I practically revised
main direction of the story and submitted it to
the modern literary magazine. And I forgot all about it. But then…
But then I got a notice saying the paper was selected
when I got back. Great, huh? You should go back
and rest at the motel now. No! I won’t go back to
the motel today. Oh, you said you don’t have
money right? Take this. Please, don’t. Take this! Ah why are you acting like this? – Take it.
– Stop it. Why are you doing that? Take me to the police station! After you drop me off
you can go to your parents’. You can sleep in peace
in the apartment. Am I worth less than
ten thousand won? You always cried fake tears
in front of me, but today I finally get to see you
cry over ten thousand won. But where can a poor
bunch like us get ten thousand won? What? Poor bunch? Don’t make me laugh. I used to be touched
by that comment, but not anymore. I am the poor one here, not you! You say such things, but you’ve taken full advantage of a poor man and humiliated him as well. I want to go home now. I don’t know what your family is like, but I won’t let you go home tonight. Why are you acting like this? What do you want me to do?
What do you want from me? Take me to the police station!
Why don’t you? Why… Why can’t I
go home tonight? Why you ask? You always talked about your house
as if it were some grand castle. I want to see how nuts
the people in the castle go if you don’t don’t
come home tonight. If you actually think about it, your family isn’t anything
more than petit bourgeoisie. What other place on earth has
so many pretentious people? All you guys do is talk garbage about others
when you guys aren’t much yourselves. When did I talk poorly of you? I met up with someone like you,
upon my return. That was the most shameful and lowly thing
I could have done. I trusted you, but you really aren’t entitled
to sleep with someone like me. Of course, this is all due to
me being too naive. When you came looking for me
four and a half years ago in France… I didn’t go looking for you! Yes, you can babble whatever you want,
but in your letters and phone calls you said if you would allow me to come,
and you sticked to this sentence. And you begged me to help you
prepare the arrangements – to go to France.
– But it’s not like I went there with the intention
of living with you. I’m sure.
Because you are a hail woman. Is that why you also
enjoyed the sex? Soon I learned that you were not
smart enough to study by yourself and that was a big surprise for me. You didn’t have to write
my dissertation for me then! Now you talk like that? I had no other choice but to.
Why? Because you would cry and beg day and night for help. Also, there was another reason
why I wrote your dissertation for you. The most important reason was I wanted to make you happy. I liked seeing you happy rather than
seeing you sad and blue. What is the point of having
a doctorate and being a literary critic? – What good does that do me?
– I think it would be best for you
to shut up and listen. Of course, I regret turning a knucklehead like you into a doctor of literature. After I helped you,
you completely betrayed me, and humiliated me like this. Doctor! When did I
ever humiliate you? Yes, a girl like you is
too stupid and indecent to understand
the true nature of my actions. Does everyone worship you because you received a doctorate and returned as a literary critic
in such a short time? What is the point of all of it! What good is it to me? I didn’t do any of it! It tortures me now! Come again! J, how would you feel if you lost a year
writing my dissertation for me and was left all alone
in France for a year? Well… of course I would go crazy. Right… then let me ask you this. How would it feel if you
came back a year late because of time spent
writing my dissertation only to find that
I had met someone else, and I treated you poorly for no reason? Well… of course, I would detest you
and just let you be. What?
What did you say? Of course,
I would detest you. And because of that
I siad just let you be. What? You would detest me
and just let me be? Yes. Detest me and just let me be? Detest me and let me be? Yes. Why… Why are you doing this? Why… Why are you doing this?
You’re scaring me. Stay still. You’re just trying to scary me.
Right? Stay still.
Darn it, stay still. Stop it! Are you thinking more clearly?
Are you okay? Stop it! Stop it! Oh no! Someone is coming.
Someone is coming Are you still thinking
about the other guy? If you think about it,
I feel bad for him as well. But you must forget about him. I’ll forget about all that has happened, so let’s not think anymore
pointless thoughts. There is a saying that the earth
gets harder after it rains. Please move your car! Move your car! Move your car! Why won’t you do it? It seems like you have OCD. I think I might. It always bothered me
when we were together in France. That is a lie.
You also sought pleasure like me. You know I’m tortured as well. Sometimes it’s hard for me
to fight it. That’s why we should do it now. No. Next time. We can do it
next time for sure. Welcome. You look pretty today. Are you saying that
I usually don’t dress up for you? I don’t have anything to wear. It’s not like you ever bought me
anything to wear. You have to sleep with me tonight, like you promised
last time. Okay? Do you want to go see
a fortune teller? Why? To ask what?
Our compatibility? It’s because I’m so worried. There’s nothing to ask. We already know
though our time in France. Remember doing it when we were
living in that small apartment? You wanted to use separate rooms so you could catch up on
your studies. So I slept in the living room, alone. But only after two days,
I opened my eyes at 8 a.m. to find you standing
next to my bed. So I lifted the blanket and you came in and
that’s when it all started. How many hours were we at it,
that time? Hmm… I didn’t time it, but I think it must have been
almost four hours. When we had just finished,
Mademoiselle Kim rang the bell. When I looked at the clock
it was almost noon. We were in our honeymoon stage. We acted like our sole purpose
in life was to do it. You would be standing at the window waiting for me to come back from school. – We did it three times the first night.
– Four! Really? Your’e the unemployed type.
You’re much better when the sun’s out. Do you know how many
positions we did? I counted it last time,
and it came out to ten. What I like the most
is that you know what I want just by the way
I move my hands. You move your body accordingly. It’s not like we’ve only done it
a few times. I really felt comfortable doing
if from behind. You always promised to stay still, but you always moved. Of course you don’t move at first, but about a minute after you enter me you start moving. Doing it sitting down is the best, but you move so much
it worries me. Every time we do it like that
I almost die. When we first did it
you screamed so loud. As soon as I entered you, you would scream
at the top of your lungs. Did I yell that loud? Loud? You almost screamed
for five minutes straight. I covered your mouth because you were so loud
and only then did you quiet down. I didn’t know we would be so good
from the start, like that. At first, I didn’t think
it was that great. It just felt like a streamlined ship
was entering my body. That’s the only thing I remember. But from the second time on,
it was really good. Yes, the second time
was really good. When you are about to orgasm, your nose gets stuffy
and you start moaning. You make a high pitched sound and you start to scratch my back. Do we have to go? Okay.
I’ll go in. Do I have to go in? Why are you acting like this again? Are you still thinking about him? Then why? Why do you have to
torture me like this? But it’s so sad. Can’t we not do it? No! Please. Please. Okay. Just hold on a second. Do we have to go in? Yes, of course. Why do we have to do it? How many times do
I have to explain? We’ll be talking in circles
until the sunrises! Don’t humiliate me anymore. When did I humiliate you? Why are you crying? Are you crying for me?
Or for him? Please!
Okay. Stop. Hold on. Please. You’re scaring me.
Why are you being like this. Why are you doing this? Are you trying to humiliate me? Okay. I’ll take it off.
You’re going to rip my clothes. Can I keep it on? No! Why not? Why can’t we just do it like this? Okay. I’ll take it off. Go over there.
I’ll take it off. Put the light out. And the curtain. It’s already done. But it’s still bright. You’ve done? Yes. Take them off, too! No, I don’t have to.
it’s not necessary. Why are you acting
so shy all of a sudden. I fondled your breasts
for three and a half years. Please let me keep this on. Okay! Okay! I’ll take it off. I’ll take it off. Go away.
You’re going to rip it. I’ll take it off. Go over there.
Don’t look at me. Wow you’ve become a virgin. Okay are you done now? Not yet. I said not yet. Don’t.
Stop it. Don’t do it yet. It hurts. Ow. Stop Stop. Stop Stop. Stop Stop. I’m sorry. Why is this like this? How did you do this? Okay.
I’ll take it off. Let go. Okay? You ripped my panties. Am I a whore? No.
You are not a whore. That’s what you called me last time.
You called me a whore. I just said that. You ripped my panties. Do you really look at me
like a prostitute? I said no! I just said that last time.
That was all just a lie. I don’t want to take off my underskirt. Okay.
I’ll take it off. Do we have to do it? Are you crazy? Are you trying to
make me go crazy? Then give me your shirt. I’ll wear it like I used to. Doctor, do you detest me? You said you detested me. I don’t detest you. – You detest me!
– Shut up. Why would I detest you? Why are you acting like this? My goodness. Why? Okay. It’s been a month now.
What are you going to do? It’s been a month.
You must have come to a conclusion. Didn’t you say you would
make a decision after a month? Why do you have to rip
my underwear again tonight? Do you have to always
ask me “why”? It seems like you really don’t know. I don’t think there’s
anyone as lustful and hypocritical as you
on this whole planet. Why are you not coming in? Do we have to go in? Why do I have to go in? I don’t want to go in. You rest by yourself tonight. Oh please.
Do we have to do it? Stay still. Do you have to do it this badly – Can’t we just not do it?
– This really won’t come loose. It wont come off?
Let me try. – Let me try.
– Wow. It really won’t come off? – I’ll try it, move your hands.
– Just wait. Huh. It really wont come off. Hold on. This won’t come off. I’ll try, stay still. Do we have to do it? Stay still. Do we really have to do it
this badly? Can’t we not do it? We look so burly standing here with just our pants on
and our shirts off. Why do you torture me
every time we meet? You’ve actually made it impossible
to take your pants off today. Why do you say
I torture you every time we meet? It’s not like I do it on purpose. It takes more than three hours
to take your clothes off. You are an incredible women. If…if you can’t do it, get something like a match
and burn the end off. Try it that way if you must. Oh yeah. Matches…matches.. come here. Ow that’s hot. Do we have to go through
this to do it? How else are
we going to get it off? You want me to go
ask someone else for help? Come here. Do you think I’m a whore? It seems like you need me to say
“you’re not a whore.” That’s not what I’m saying! It’s because we are using a match
to take my clothes off! What difference does it make
whether you are a whore or not. Watch your hands. Ouch that’s hot! There we go. Now… Like this. Move.
I’ll take it off. I said move. I’m not a whore. My goodness shut up.
Who said you were a whore? You are someone I cherish. Why…what’s wrong? It wasn’t good this time either? Don’t worry.
I’m okay. You worry too much.
Don’t worry about such things. Gosh! You even untied my belt.
You think I’m a whore? I’m going to leave.
Goodnight. J, sit down. Like you said it wasn’t good tonight
just like it wasn’t good last time. Unlike our days in France,
I’m just not feeling it. Who cares if you can’t do it well.
It’s okay with me. When we were
having sex tonight I felt the presence of the other man. I think that is
why I couldn’t enjoy it. I’m sorry. That means… You’re an emotional liar
when we have sex. You think of another man while
you are having sex with someone else. You act like a virgin
is getting raped. And naturally you treat me
like the rapist. When did I treat you like a rapist? You may cry, when you are with that guy,
thinking of me. And he won’t know what to do because he has no idea
why you are crying. He might think it’s because
you are a very sensitive person. But I’m different from him. I’m too old to be played by
your vanity and silly feelings. And I’m also too busy for this. And I’m too smart for that. And that is why
I’m saying this to you. Go home tonight and
think about it real hard. Whether you are going to
pick him or me. And let’s meet again
tomorrow morning. Did you sleep well? Uh… it felt like my brain was
being poked by needles. It’s going to get better. I was also really tired last night. So did you think about it? What? Did you decide to pick him?
Or me? Tell me.
No need to hesitate. This is the best time to tell me. So, did you decide to
pick him? Yes. Okay. I get it. It’s due to your emotional problems
and it’s time for me to step aside. Thanks for everything.
I wish you luck. Let’s go. Shall we shake before we split. You want to take a stroll? I have a sudden urge to
humiliate you for the last time. How? Because I’m so smart, I can make you very happy and also I can also stomp on your pride.
My choice. Why don’t you try. But not here.
We need to go somewhere quiet where I can enjoy seeing
your humiliated face. Fine.
Let’s go somewhere quiet. I’m so smart. If I had such money, I would just leave this country
right now. What? Why do I have to
give you money? Why do you have to give it to me?
Let’s not go on and on about this. But you know that
I don’t have that kind of money. Where would I get such
a large amount of money? Don’t ask me that. It’s the same thing as me not knowing
how you can afford to have a car. Not only do I have no idea how you will come up with
30 million won, I also don’t care. If I had a job, at least, I could get that kind of money together,
but I don’t. So how then? I can’t do it. Just like I expected,
I hurt your pride. I told you to get a job, but you were busy dating, right? Then again,
that’s not my business. Those are your emotional issues,
not mine. I just need 30 million won
right now. But what money do I have? Oh yeah? I asked you politely for the money,
but if you can’t fulfill my request, I’ll have to demand it. You wish for me to keep fond memories
of you in the future. But I don’t want to keep
such cheap memories. I’m trying to sell these memories
for the small amount of 30 million won. After selling it I’m going to leave
this nasty place with a light heart. And you would have bought
your doctorate for 30 million won. How simple is this? What do you want me to do? What would you do if you were me? I said okay! That is not true.
You misunderstood me. What am I misunderstanding? That is not how I truly feel. Please try to talk without crying. What would others in this cafe
think of us? What are you saying is a misunderstanding? When I asked you
if you pick him or me? Were you saying your answer
was not really the honest truth? Yes. Really? Really! That was not my honest truth. I just said it like that. Then why did you say “yes” when I asked
if you picked him? How else could I answer
when you ask like that? This train is heading to
Sadang, Sadang. Please stand behind the yellow line
for your safety. Why do you want to stay with me? Sign the papers
or let’s go to court. Where are you going? I’m never going to
give you the divorce. I can live my life
anyway I want. I can! Are you the devil incarnate? Why are you acting
like this again? You said you wouldn’t say
stuff like that again. That’s what I said last time. Yes, I did. But that wasn’t the honest truth. Why do you torture me like this?
Are you trying to torture me to death? I’m the one that is going to die. Do you know how tortured
I am because of you. When we slept together
two weeks ago you were fine, but now things are different? You are like an addict? I’m not like this because
I had sex with you. Really? I guess I don’t need to be with a girl
that changes her mind every single week. I don’t change my mind
every single week. Whenever I meet you,
my feelings… Whatever, I don’t know
how grand your emotions are, but you always use it
as an excuse to humiliate me. – My emotions…
– I get it. I get it. You’re emotions sway left and right
and that’s why I need to leave you. Better? But no matter your emotions I need to
be paid my due. Don’t you think? Racetrack is 934 steps north
from the intersection and then 780 steps west and then another 858 steps north. Racetrack is 934 steps north
from the intersection and then 780 steps west. Welcome. Eat mine as well.
You said you were hungry. That is yours. So you are saying you
won’t give me the money? It’s not that I won’t give it to you,
I can’t. What can I do. Fine. I have a plan to be compensated
for the emotional and mental damage I have received. First I’m going to tell all of this
to your parents. Go ahead, I’ll feel liberated
once it’s all out. But, parents always side
with their children. So even if I tell them they won’t believe me. So I’ve thought of
what I can to do after that. And that would be
to take you to court. Go ahead then. But even if
I do take you to court I won’t be able to
win the case. Why? Because
I don’t have any solid evidence. So if you are ever called into court
you must deny everything. Then you will be able to win. Do you understand? So then why am I thinking of starting
a case I can’t win? That is simple. Even if I lose the trial in court I will have fulfilled my objective. It will be a very unusual case and so society
will be drawn into it. And the press will be
very entertained by it. Do as you please. If I don’t take you to court
what else can I do? I have another card
I can play. I can write a paper describing
the details of our life together. But as you know there is no way for me
to come up with that money. I know that too. I’ve invested in the most incompetent
and untrustworthy human in the world. And because of that
I am being punished for it. The only gift you have is
that you have been spoiled by your rich parents and you know how to play rich men. I don’t have a man. Even if you said you had a man
it really doesn’t matter to me. You don’t need to tell me that. Do I have to tell your parents
or take you to court, or write a paper? Do I have to do it? My answer to that question
is “I must.” Because I have been
unjustly humiliated. But… I just had a good idea. What is it? You’re saying you can’t pay me
30 million won, right? – Then how about this?
– What? If you really can’t pay me that money how about you be a whore
for that amount of money? I must get paid back from
you in some way. That is a great idea. Yeah? So we are going
to do it then? Sure let’s do that. Since I don’t have money
I’ll at least have to do that. Okay? So then I will call you
“putain” from now on. It’s better than
calling you whore, no? If I call you whore
what will others think? So I’ll call you “putain”
because no one will understand. Each time will be worth
ten thousand won. I’ll even count the two times
we did it in Korea. Ten thousand won
is too cheap. You don’t know
the current cost of things. But a girl like you that is old and short
should be good for ten thousand won. You still have to think of
the market price. Fine. I don’t want to pay you
less than others. As you know,
I’m not stingy. So I will find
the fair price later. So on days when service
is exceptional or when I am feeling generous
I will pay you more. Okay? Okay. It wasn’t good
this time either? No. I got weak
after I returned to Seoul. Are you having an orgasm? Are you in pain? What’s wrong? Stay with me! Now, now. Hold on. Don’t let go.
Put some pressure on it. Yes, like that. Are you better? Are you okay? Thank you. I thought I was going to die. Later when we earn money
let’s get this surgically removed. Did it bother you that much? No. It’s okay. – So have you thought about it?
– About what? J, this is a very important matter
in my life! To be honest I’ve thought about it
constantly for the past few days. And? Um… I think it’s a great idea. You are right. What is
the point of staying here. Is my life about having a large,
dream apartment? Or having kids like a goldfish
and sending them to kindergarten and then racing them to
cram schools after that? I don’t want those things
to squander my life away. If I can leave, if I can do something else
wouldn’t it be better to leave? Yes. So you are coming with me? But… don’t ask me whether
I will come with you or not yet. But J, you have to
hurry up and decide. Only then can I make
the proper arrangements. No? Yes. Okay. Look J. If I plug this into my computer
I can use it just like a Korean typewriter. This is something
you can’t get abroad. I don’t like computers.
Once you get sucked into it you sit in front of them
for hours like a mad man. I won’t be like that
from now on. My legs hurt. How much longer
do we have to go? Oh… It would be
nice to have a car… Shall we go to a cafe? I’m so tired of going to
those darn cafes! Ouch!
That hurts. Are you okay? If I get pregnant again I’m going to
have the baby this time. You are so erratic!
Erratic! We’ve had sex three times
after I go back and we didn’t enjoyed it. You never allowed me
into your heart. But… You say you are going give birth to
a kid conceived like that! Erratic! You… Even when we were in France and we were completely united you refused
to have that child you were pregnant with. But it’s not like I was the only one
that didn’t want the child. You also didn’t want the kid! Huh?
Buy some socks. Why socks? You don’t have any socks. When can we stop using motels? I think we will have to use
motels for a very long time. Honey. Honey. Honey, I’ve tortured you too much. Honey I’ll never torture you again. Honey! I think I should go now. Oh… why is this still like this? Yes. Hello. Did you sleep well? Yes it’s been a while since I’ve slept so well.
But why are you calling me? You asked me to call you
in the morning last night. Oh right. But you already told me
your decision, didn’t you? Has something changed
since then? No.
I’m going to go. What will I do here by myself? Stop lying! You’re leaving because you don’t
want to deal with the kids, right? Irresponsible prick. When are you leaving? What day! What are you going to do
about the kids? If you send the kids
I will gladly take them. I’m going to go now. You want to make your sister sad? You want to kill your dad? You’re not going to Paris. Prick! I’m not going to let you
get away with this. Daegu-Seoul Hyundai Newspaper For the Good of Public Culture J, I’m so tired and lonely. Please don’t torture me
any more. I don’t want to hear it.
Stop calling my house. Yes… then why don’t you let me talk to
someone that can understand how I feel. No.
I’m going to hang up. If you want to hang up,
hang up. I am walking towards
your house right now! I’m going to meet someone
that will understand me. Mademoiselle Kim. Yes. Like I said before I have something personal to
discuss with Doctor J today. Can you please give us a moment? Please don’t leave. If you leave,
the Doctor will kill me. Go ahead and talk.
I know all about it. What do you know? Why don’t you tell me
what you know. J told me everything. So what exactly
did she tell you? You did want to marry J. And? And that you kind of helped J
write her dissertation. Did she say “kind of”? Fine! It’s true that you helped me a great deal
in writing my dissertation. – But…
– And? – And…
– And? And that you are
trying to go abroad. And? I’m not going abroad
with you. Never! And? You don’t know much do you? If you don’t know much
don’t butt into other people’s business. Please leave. Don’t go.
You can’t go. J said she is
having problems with you and that she wanted me
to come with her. Mademoiselle Kim, you are not
responsible for resolving our issues. So get up right now and please leave.
Do you understand me? – Oh my!
– What are you doing? You can’t do that in the cafe! If you are going to be like that,
then leave! Here you go. Lift your leg. Do you know that this all happened because of you, Mademoiselle Kim? Mademoiselle Kim, you can’t be
held responsible for anything, right? So why are you butting
into our business? So get up and leave please. If you stay then
I really might kill her today. I’m going to leave.
Take your time talking. J let’s leave quietly…
very quietly from this cafe. How can we talk freely
after such an incident? If you go towards the overpass
there is another cafe called Jeil. Yes Let’s meet there. Okay. Does it hurt a lot? No, I’m okay. J, why do you say you’re not in pain
when you are in pain? How would someone like me
know about pain? If I’m beaten, I have to take it. Looking at your face makes
my heart break with pain. You enjoy hitting me. Why would I want to beat you
after all the hard times we went through together in France? Then why did you hit me? Why did I hit you? Listen to me carefully. The reason I asked you to come out
today was to talk to you. It was not to meet with
Mademoiselle Kim. So why did you bring
that women with you? Now that she
has seen everything she will gossip about it.
Won’t she? But Mademoiselle is
not that kind of a person. There isn’t a certain kind of person
that goes around gossiping. Even you have enough pride to keep your pain to yourself. Don’t you think
I have any pride of my own? When did I do anything to your pride? If I’ve hurt your pride,
I’m sorry. My pride is not so fickle
to be hurt like that. It’s just that I’m upset.
That is why I hit you. Then we’re even. Shouldn’t it end with you hitting me? It’s all over. But let me ask you one thing. Ask. Why did you say two weeks ago
that you would go abroad with me and then change your mind? I am not going to
go abroad with you! Why do I have to
go abroad with you? I am not insisting that
you go abroad with me. – I am just… two weeks ago…
– I’m not going! I said I’m not going!
I won’t go! Are you crazy? I too don’t want to
go with a girl like you. It would be crazy to take
such a psychotic girl as you. Then we’re all set.
Everything is settled, no? I saw your paper that was in
the literature magazine. I read the article where
you interviewed an author. To be honest,
I read the first paragraph ten times. I read it very carefully ten times, but I was still unable to understand
what you were trying to say. And the last question
you asked the author. Do you think your novel
will be validated after ten years? That is a stupid question. To use the words “validated” is
to ask if the public will accept it. But what is there to validate in a novel?
You can’t validate a novel. I know! I know! I know!
I get it! Did you know? Then why did you
write that for all to read? I could not understand it. And the only part
that made any sense…. The part that has no grammatical errors were parts copied from my paper. I know.
Please just stop it. When I’m talking to you
you’re illogical, just like your odd paragraphs. I just asked you why
you had changed your mind after agreeing to go with me
two weeks ago. But all you say is
“I’m not going. I said I’m not going!”.
You just scream that. Do you think that’s the proper way
to answer my question? Then how should I answer? How should you answer? If you so desperately don’t want to
answer my questions you can say “it’s a secret. I don’t want to tell you”. You can plead the Fifth. But it’s not even that,
you just yelled I won’t go.
I can’t go. So how can I not say you are crazy! Are you laughing?
How can you laugh? I’m laughing
because I’m crazy. How did this happen to you, J?
You weren’t like this in France. Did Seoul turn you into this? My heart is crushed. What do you want me to do! How did you become like this J? How are you going to
live with those lies…. After that R came up to Seoul
one more time. The reason he came to Seoul was to get his translated
dissertation published. After submitting his dissertation
to the publisher, R came to meet me. His visit was so unexpected. I knew he was abroad, so I asked him
when he got back. He said he came back
on June 16th. After a bit, he said it could’ve been the 15th or the 17th.
He couldn’t really remember. Hi, is this Soon-ja?
It’s me. Where are you? How is father? A few days ago
father coughed up blood. What? We took him to the hospital and
after exams they said it was tuberculosis. He had to stay isolated for a few days. So we took him to a large hospital and they said they didn’t have room.
We put him on the waiting list. Mother said J’s mother came by and she put out money and insist on take it.
I don’ know how much it was. Father said we couldn’t take it
and sent her back. The Road to Race Track Korean Film Archive presents
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